Today I am thankful for creativity. This weekend I decided to do a random project that I had been thinking about for quite a while. I made a purse out of some pockets from my hubby's ripped cargo pants. I am so excited how it turned out. One of my main reasons for not completing half (ok, more than half) of the projects in my head, is that I don't know what to do with them once I make them. So I have decided to post them on this site and sell them. Not sure if any of them will sell, but "Hey" I'll never know til I try!

I am so thankful for NAPS!! Today I had the rare opportunity to lay out on our enclosed porch, in the sun, with my kitties, and take a long nap. This is one of my favorite places to be during the Spring! So to enjoy this luxury in the middle of winter is so awesome! Thank you Lord for the sunshine!

I have so much to be thankful for today! Last night I had an awesome and fun night out with the girls from church. Got to laugh and joke around, and talk about "girl stuff" :). Then today, what I thought was going to be really stressfull, ended up being one full of accomplishments. I got the project I needed to finish done, printed, and handed in on time. I stepped in on a "project" of disgusting and foul smelling proportions (we'll just leave it at that - lol). I felt good that I was able to stomach it and help my friend out. When I would normally have wussed out :). Then I got a LOT of cleaning and organizing done at work. Hoping the improvements that we made will help our creative processes excel and flourish. Then I got to come home and cook dinner for my hubby, which I always love to do. Eating dinner with him is such a blessing. I love our time where we can relax and enjoy each others company. Now to get ready for bed. Praying tomorrow is a good day and full of blessings (good or bad).

Thank you Lord for your provisions, your hand in my life, for holding me up when I can barely function, for wiping away my tears, for comforting me in my sorrows, and for helping me break out of my shell. I pray that I will listen to you more and less of the world. I pray for my husband, that you would provide his every need and help him to be content with where you have him. I pray that you will show him joy, love, and peace. That you will fill his heart with what he needs to get through the day. That you would draw him and I closer to you and each other. I thank you so much for him. He truly blesses my life and fills it with love. In Your Precious Name, Amen.

A little over 6 months since my last Thankful post. I feel so bad for not keeping up with this journey and I pray that I am able to continue on where I left off. After Becky died, depression hit me like a ton of bricks. I haven't felt pain like that ever before in my life. On the days where I was able to stay in denial, I was "fine" on the outside but crying on the inside. Then there were days where I just couldn't even function. Through all this my hubby, my rock, has been there for me. Holding me in his arms, letting me cry until I had no more tears, and praying with me when I was just too anxious to sleep. During Christmas we went to her headstone and decorated it (mainly because she LOVED decorating for Christmas). The next night my hubby took me out to her headstone to show me that he had placed a string of LED lights that run in batteries around her headstone. It looked so beautiful! She would have loved it! Then I found out that he has been going out there to change out the batteries after each storm. This has been so healing for me. I couldn't believe he was doing this for me and for her. I am praying that the pain gets easier. I miss her so much!

Today was another part of the mourning process. Almost 2 months after my dear friend Becky passed away, we were able to bury her ashes at the local cemetery. I went to the florist and they helped me arrange the most beautiful arrangement for her grave. We picked out her favorite colors and flowers - she would have loved them.

I am so thankful that I got to spend these last years with her. Laughing, crying, singing, praying, sharing, and so much more. I have regrets, but I pray that she knows that the love I had for her was genuine and selfless. Becky was an amazing woman. Her hugs were so big and strong (even in her weakest days). I miss those so much! One of my regrets was that I didn't hug her enough. Since I started working as her caretaker, I saw her everyday, so the hugs didn't happen as much. But I am so thankful that I got to spend every day with her. Even though she was terminally ill, her spirits were always lifting. Her death was quick, she didn't suffer, we all thought she was going to live forever.