Yesterday I ran into one of the owners, caught me by surprise. I dreaded this day - but God was there with me. I smiled (genuinely) and said Hello. Let's just say that I was not greeted with the same gesture. As I paid for my items and got in the car, I was stunned that I actually smiled and said Hello. Where had the bitterness and anger gone? I thought a lot about it - God felt I needed to be up in the middle of the night to do this :). And this morning I came to the realization that I am THANKFUL. Thankful for being laid off. The environment was unhealthy - emotionally and spiritually. Even though there were days that we all laughed and had good times, there were also many more days that were filled with criticism, negativity, and more complaining than I wanted to be around.
Since the layoff I have been worried about finances. I mean that's why we have a job in the first place, right? Well I can say that I am THANKFUL for the penny pinching that we have had to do and are still doing. It makes me grateful for what we have. It made me realize that I used to spend money on frivolous and unnecessary things (which I really noticed when I had a garage sale). Our friends and family have been there for us in these tough times, helping us, praying for us, and giving me a shoulder to cry on. We continue to be grateful for everything that God has provided! My husband has a great job and my 2 businesses have picked up and God is providing abundantly. The monetary amount may not be significant to most people, but to us, it is everything we need and just a little extra. I have learned new ways to stretch a dollar and for that I am very satisfied.
All in all I am so THANKFUL that God has given me an attitude of gratefulness. I am happy that the anger has subsided and that God has shown me the positive things that have come out of this. And most of all - I am thankful for my husband! Thankful that he is there for me, my Knight in Shining Armor that stands up for me, encourages me and takes care of me.