Day 95 of 365 Days of Thanks

A little over 6 months since my last Thankful post. I feel so bad for not keeping up with this journey and I pray that I am able to continue on where I left off. After Becky died, depression hit me like a ton of bricks. I haven't felt pain like that ever before in my life. On the days where I was able to stay in denial, I was "fine" on the outside but crying on the inside. Then there were days where I just couldn't even function. Through all this my hubby, my rock, has been there for me. Holding me in his arms, letting me cry until I had no more tears, and praying with me when I was just too anxious to sleep. During Christmas we went to her headstone and decorated it (mainly because she LOVED decorating for Christmas). The next night my hubby took me out to her headstone to show me that he had placed a string of LED lights that run in batteries around her headstone. It looked so beautiful! She would have loved it! Then I found out that he has been going out there to change out the batteries after each storm. This has been so healing for me. I couldn't believe he was doing this for me and for her. I am praying that the pain gets easier. I miss her so much!